Racing is life. Anything before or after is just waiting.
I should be doing homework right now. However I got distracted and it is 1AM which means I am now an enlightened monk right?
I am sitting on the couch thinking about how much my wonderful girlfriend, who has fallen asleep on my lap, has changed my life. I no longer want to be cool. I have constantly tried to fit in and be like everyone else, but after the last 6 years of knowing this wonderful woman I no longer want that. I want to be her partner in life. I want to be someone that she can rely on. I want to be her rock. I don’t want material things to give me self worth, just her love and trust. This is more than just about her, but I am realizing that the life I want to live is one devoid of excess, waste, and material wealth. This is some what hard for me to come to terms with as I have defined my life by possessions and not by who I am.
I am so very thankful that she has been right there by my side even when I was a pretty shallow guy.
We left the radio off today in the car, and she told me how wonderful and refreshing it was to just be with each other. I feel as though somehow I have misunderstood the entire meaning of life until 10 minutes ago. It is not about making it, obtaining a social rank, it is just about being the most genuine person you can be and doing your absolute best for yourself and your community.